So here I am, starting a Real Blog. It’s a somewhat intimidating prospect, even though I’m obviously doing it of my own volition. I’ve thought about starting a blog before, but never did because I’ve never felt like I had anything to write about. Back in high school, I kept a series of online journals that were very, very blatantly the work of a teenager, and I’m sure everything I wrote had been written in similar ways by millions of teenagers before me. Thinking about how banal my writing was then still makes me wince a bit and wonder if I ought to be doing this at all. While I won’t be breaking any new ground in the blogging world (or “blogosphere” as I hear the kids are calling it these days), I hope this will at least be less insipid than my previous attempts.

I decided a while ago that I would start my blog on this date, 10/10/10, because it’s a nice round number and looks pretty. Then, earlier this week, I learned that 101010 is “42” in binary. So today isn’t just a nifty-looking date, it’s also the answer, in binary form, to Life, the Universe, and Everything (according to Douglas Adams’ The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy). I can’t read binary, but I’m still a big enough geek to be a huge fan of The Hitchhiker’s Guide and enjoy the (admittedly rather silly) significance this date derives from it.

If today’s date is the answer, I guess that leaves me looking for the question… which brings me to the motive behind this blog. It’s as simple and as endlessly complicated as this: I’m searching for a passion. Not a romantic passion (well, that too), but a life passion, a subject or idea to fascinate and occupy me. I need something that I can study with deep interest, immerse myself in, and hopefully make a career from. In spite of being a reasonably intelligent, socially capable, and somewhat personable individual, I’ve dropped out of college twice, and currently make my (very poor) living at a mind-numbing retail job. I’ll unfold the reasons and details behind these facts in future posts, but suffice it to say that the facts themselves need to change. You could say – if you were cheesy and a total dork, which I am – that I’m searching for the question that will lead me to the answer to my life, the Universe, and Everything. I’m hoping that documenting that search will help keep me motivated to continue it, even when it gets painful and seems impossible.

If you happen to be reading this at random for some strange reason, don’t worry, I’m not always this serious (or this cheesy, although I am pretty much always a dork). I’ll try to infuse my ramblings with at least a little humor – hopefully, I haven’t spent years honing the skill of poking fun at myself for no reason, and it will now come in handy. There will be plenty of random musings and stories here, some of which may even be mildly entertaining. Actually, there’s a very good chance that any attempt I make at a cohesive theme will fall apart by the end of my first week and this entire blogging endeavor will disintegrate into chaos. Doesn’t that make you want to keep reading?